Wise Men Seek Him

This new background of the Three Kings seeking out our Savior to give Him their gifts just made me think that "wise men seek Him". I'm asking myself, now, am I wise? As I'm already getting stressed about finding and buying all the gifts for this Christmas, I believe I'm failing at the "finding Him" part of my gift-giving. There are so many things I would love to give and so many things I would love to have but I'm missing something. While shopping with Eric last night I was talking to him about something like how fun and exciting it would be to be able to randomly hand out hundred dollar bills to people or pay for the person's groceries that are in front of or behind us. You know, random acts of unexpected kindness, the kind that is truly a gift because it's NOT expected...I love the idea of that. I also wonder if ever I had that kind of money would I really have the heart to DO such things for people. I would like to think that I do. In this thought process I think that I would finally enjoy helping at a soup kitchen. Giving my hands and heart (something that I AM blessed with) to help others. I've never been to a soup kitchen before, never put myself "out there" before. I'm sure it's time for me to stop wondering if I have the heart and just HAVE the heart and DO it! I wonder how to volunteer for that sort of thing anyway. I want to be more than Santa Claus this year, I want to give a real gift. Any ideas?